Healing Begins

So often in our culture we like to hide our "private lives." We want to keep secrets and protect ourselves from the pain that we may experience if we should share our struggles or hardships with other people. Fear of judgement is enough for us to keep things to ourselves. So often we have been hurt by people's judgements and insensitive comments that we just clam up and keep things to ourselves. I have the tendency to do this.

Recently God has been teaching me about His Power that is there through confession and openness. These last two months have been hard one's for us because of the loss of our unborn baby. God has spoke to me about the power of confession and openness and the true healing that happens when we share with one another.

We shared our last pregnancy with our friends and family at about 8 weeks. News trickled down the line as it always does and I was fine with that. As the weeks went on we were able to share in our excitement with our loved ones. At 11.5 weeks when we found out that we had lost our baby, it was devastating. We were broken. The loss was hard to deal with alone, but how would we deal with this now that everyone knows?

God has been teaching me that we need to allow others into our lives. If people don't know what is going on in our personal lives how can we expect to feel the support of our fellow believers. God used so many people to lend us love and support as we dealt with our loss.

As the miscarriage started to happen my sister was staying with us. So that was a huge blessing. Colby had a built in babysitter as we had appointments and trips to the hospital. Also I am so grateful that Kristi was there to come over late one night as I needed to go to the emergency room yet again. Then the next day my parents arrived for a visit we had scheduled months earlier. I can't even explain the blessing that they are to me. I love them so much. Also we were blessed with emails and meals from those in our church family. And support from other women who have had miscarriages themselves. In the midst of a very sad loss, God reminded me that He loves us and He has placed people in our life to remind us of the love that He has for us.

Now, I can't write all of this and not mention the hurt that sometimes comes along with sharing our lives with others. There were about .5 dozen comments that really hurt me. Although people mean well it does not always come across that way. But I have been able to forgive them knowing that if they understood how their comments made me feel they would not have said them.

We also need to remember that Satan wants us to feel alone in our struggles. He would love nothing more than for us to think that we can rely on ourselves and not need anyone to support us because that causes Pride and Division which weaken us. God calls us to confess and share fellowship.

But the point of my story is that we can see God's hand, through our fellow Christians. And as we all journey through our individual hardships, I challenge you to share them with your close friends or family. People love you and want to know how they can pray for you. Open your heart and allow God to bless you with the fellowship of believers that he has placed in your life.

I came across this song by Tenth Avenue North. "Healing Begins." It talks about how we build walls of glass around us. We think we are hiding but God see through all of the walls that we build around us. "So let them fall down" Share your worries, sins and struggles. As the walls fall down, God's light hits the darkness in us and begins the healing in us. And His blood can cover us. And heal us.

So listen to this song...if you want. :)